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[ She kinda likes this cat treatment, but rather than say that she gives out a long-suffering sigh and then stretches. Enjoy those pointy bits, again. ]

Already doing it.

Good. Let me know if that changes.

[ur gettin a smooch on top of your dumb head, friend. that's not too out of the ordinary, at least. also the muscles help protect against the pointy bits. it's like acupuncture, kinda relaxing tbh.]

Only if you stop doing it.

[ God. At least she's used to Lea's particular pointiness. Although it only got worse as she got taller. She goes a little quieter, but doesn't move. ]

What do I do now?

[well, fuck. Isa swallows hard, forcing her own emotions back down where they belong and where they can't be so unruly. she doesn't stop petting Lea, at least.]

I don't really know. I guess you just keep going, and wait for the emotional bits to scab over, and try and content yourself with the fact that some version of you somewhere is with them like you should be. Riku or Kai would probably do better than me, since they come back without Sora every time.

[she's trying really hard to not make parallels between this and if someone had died or something, and she's fully aware she doesn't really have anything to compare to. she also knows Lea's just going to be Very Sad for a long while.]

Guess that's more than I could've asked for a couple months ago.

[ If their fingers aren't laced together already she's making it that way now, and shifting her head so she can breathe better (and not in Isa's hair). ]

I don't know what I'd do if you weren't here.

Be a gross blubbering mess, probably.

[Lea's getting her hand squeezed, because even if she can't advise based on personal experience, she still is sad that Lea's so sad. in an ideal world they'd just be able to live in bed like this forever.]

Wasn't I doing that anyway? Some help you are.

[ They both know she would be a bedridden disaster. For a week, absolute minimum. Being in bed with her is so much better, and she could be convinced to stay here for hours anyway. ]

Kai'd be in here with a mop and bucket, then. But he'd also bring you food and make you eat it, which I... might do. Later.

[it's okay, Isa's a recent fan of just riding out whatever emotions happen, it seems to be working so far. and she's absolutely not going to mention any of the shit with Xigbar until Lea's doing much better; no need to add to her worries.]

Uuuuugh. I'll only eat if you're the one making it.

[ High tier depression food, that's what she needs. She doesn't even have much of an appetite right now, although Lea recognizes that she feels physically hungry. But it's not enough to get her to move. Not yet. ]

I'll do the good mac and cheese with like four kinds of cheese, how about that.

[and chocolate milk and then ice cream, just load up on dairy. but in a while, not immediately. it's only really sinking in just now for Isa just how much she missed Lea, and if she wasn't interested in moving from here before...]

That sounds amazing. I'm still putting hot sauce on it.

[ Loading up on dairy would be all the good feelings. It's not enticing enough yet to get her to initiate moving out of the bed, but she does move her arms away so she can hug Isa properly, if not squish her a little. ]

You're my best friend.

[well, she was going to make the appropriate faces for that food blasphemy, but that just stops her in her tracks, so to speak. Lea doesn't throw that term around lightly, and while it's probably been said at other times, perhaps not that directly, and especially after being gone for two months and with knowing about Roxas and Xion now. it's enough to make Isa a little teary-eyed, but she huffs and squishes Lea right back.]

And you're a gross nerd, but you're also my best friend.

[ Roxas is... a best friend. Xion is too. But they're on different levels. Less even footing, less problems they've learned from, less back and forth and tests of strength on their friendship. Oh, they had it tested, but it's not the same. Being friends with Roxas and Xion kind of just was. Isa's more work than that, and they were enemies for a while, but it seems stronger because of that. Instead of being sappier about it, she just relaxes again, although she's keeping her arms around Isa. ]

Not like I put a ton of sauce on.

[Lea probably never hit the point with either of them where she wanted to legitimately throttle them with her bare hands until the struggling stopped, huh. to be fair, Isa wanted to do that to basically everyone at one point or another, but Lea, or rather Axel, was much higher on the list after a certain point. now, though, Isa can't imagine feeling that way, which is good, it means she's healing.]

I think any is too much, but I'm not the one eating it.

Just a little. On top. On the side.

[ Right now all she's thinking about is going back to sleep with her face in Isa's hair. She might already be on her way, with how comfortable she is. ]

[that'd be fine tbh, Isa's in no hurry. buuuuut on the other hand they should both eat and not just sleep through the evening, or they'll both wake up ravenous at 3am. what does babie want here?]

Do you want food or to go back to sleep, you goof?

[ To not have to do or think about anything, even though she really should find ways to occupy herself that aren't thinking (which happens automatically) or being dead weight on Isa (which will happen no matter her mood). ]

...both?

Do I need to find an oversized baby sling somewhere, so I can carry you around on my back everywhere I go? You're a little tall for it but we could make it work.

[hmmm, time to think of things to talk about that would keep Lea distracted. but in the meantime Isa's still a pillow, because that's easier than getting up.]

Could just piggyback, it would be faster.

[ As if she hasn't hopped on to see if Isa would carry her at least once since she entered the dressing room. ]

Yeah, but what happens when you get tired of clinging? You'll fall on your ass, probably. It would work if I had a second pair of arms.

[she'd never drop Lea, ever, and would absolutely just accept being climbed on, as she always has. at the moment she's thinking about just extracting herself and telling Lea to go back to sleep, while Isa makes food, but she could also be pretty easily convinced to stay where she is.]

We could find a potion for that.

[ Isa arms x2. She would just die from being too gay. There will be protests if she tries to leave Lea alone, but she could be similarly convinced to follow. Thank god the apartment doesn't have real walls. ]

Maybe, although around here it could just as easily give me more legs, or turn me into a weird spider person. Oh, but that reminds me, I went to Halloween Town by myself while you were gone, I got a way better change than the first time. It was still a really obvious commentary on me as a person, but from what I could tell I looked pretty cool.

[hmmmmm she's developing a plan that might include death from being too gay, that seems better than Lea moping.]

[ Death By Gay is still preferable to moping for Lea too, yes. She's kind of disturbed by the idea of Isa with spider legs, but the second part makes her lift her head up enough to stare at Isa's face. ]

No way. What was it?

[ "Why did you go without me? Were you trying to get depressed?" ]

[listen, she went in braced for something equally shitty to happen, and was pleasantly surprised when it didn't do that again.]

It was this big beast thing, I had antlers and a lot of fur, and sharp teeth and claws. I was big enough that I was actually afraid I wouldn't be able to get back out through the door but I changed back as soon as I got partway through.

Antlers? Alright, alright. Sounds a little more badass than I was expecting.

[ Read: I was expecting a wolf. ]

Think it'll give you the same thing if we go together?