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[ Riku disappears first. Vanished in her sleep, in the middle of the night, collapsing in on herself in a shimmer of starlights. This isn't like last time. No warnings, no chances to say goodbye, no hesitation or resistance. She just isn't there.

Lea goes minutes after Riku, in the same way. But she's awake, lounging on her couch, having a conversation as she flips through her phone. Here and then gone, like a flame. This isn't the first time either of them have gone home, but it's the first time it's so abrupt. At least it isn't death. The last time Riku went home was seven years ago. She was gone for a month, and she came back with shorter hair and the Mark of Mastery. The last time Lea went home, no one really noticed. She thought she was used to it by now.

Things are different this time. Disorienting. Lea meets Kai in the training, for real this time. Riku has her memories, or at least most of them. They're hazy, dreamlike, but real. She has them all. She remembers how old she really is and how long she's been gone. She remembers everyone she cares about, and everyone that won't change here. She keeps her ice magic and takes what she's learned here to use there. But time is fluid. She doesn't feel like she's been gone for seven years.

Lea's are gone, for now. She lives everything new and fresh, with the dressing room appearing only in dreams vivid enough to unsettle her.

Things aren't the same for every world.

Things go better than expected.

The core story is the same. The heroes rescue the ones that need it, they bring everyone back, they defeat the darkness, and they go home. How and when and who — these things vary, but they do it all together and they go home together. And then their story is over, at least for now, and they come back.

Unlike how they went out, Lea and Riku reappear together on the beach. Coming back is just as disorienting, and neither has their phone, so they get their bearings and confirm memories with each other, of the dressing room and of home, and then separate to find their friends.

They've been gone two months. ]

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I know, I'm sorry. It was terrifying knowing something like that might happen, but a lot of it didn't add up, it didn't seem like it could actually go that horribly. If it'd been like yes, someone definitely died or was lost, I would've told you guys.

[if it helps, he also spent the two months everyone was gone worrying that yes, he should have told them, even if it was just something cryptic like "watch Sora extra hard" or something.]

[ God, she would have been so freaked out about it, although more in a general darkness-y way than a possible-death sort of way. He's right about it not adding up. ]

I know you would've. You're still lucky. Both of you.

[ Side-eying you in there too, Hachibi. ]

[hey what, why, says Hachibi. he's never done anything wrong in his life, why would he start now. /s ]

Hey, I would've kicked my own ass, if something happened that I could've helped prevent. He'd help, too.

I know. That's the only reason I'm not giving you a hard time.

[ Why are both of these threads now just cuddle piles? Oh well. Riku's probably been involved in some of the platonic cuddle fests back home ~~and maybe some of the not-so-platonic but still innocent idk if he would pick up on that~~ ]

[~~she's been around too many people recently for him to be able to get something like that, no, unless there was actual sex involved.~~ Axel goes quiet for a minute, trying to remember if there was anything else that he needed to tell her about, but there isn't really. also because cuddle piles are good. when he speaks up again it's cautiously, because he doesn't want to make Riku sad.]

So how is Sora? You all went through a lot of bullshit there at the end but she had a lot more, it seemed like.

[ Riku goes quiet and looks to the window instead of at Axel, because she's uncomfortably aware of how she must look right now. She does look sad, and like she doesn't really want to talk about it, but she's also trying to shrug it off. ]

Sora's Sora. She doesn't really change. I don't know how things would've gone if we hadn't been there, or if we hadn't had our memories or the extra powers we worked on here. Maybe she would've died. But... She's happy now. Everyone's safe. People are back. She got to meet new people, like Ven and Aqua, and Terra, and now she's getting to know people like Nami and Roxas. People from the Organization, too. That's... still a little weird, back home. Probably helps that she doesn't really remember most of them.

[ She's talking a lot, shit. That's what happens when Sora is the conversation. ]

I think she was worried she wasn't strong enough, near the end. It wasn't easy convincing her to, you know, give in. Something weird happened, but I don't know if it was in the game. Did we...

[ She hesitates, then glances back to Axel. ]

Did we all die?

[he was smiling a little, because it makes him happy to see Riku enthused about something or someone she loves, but it drops when she asks that.]

Yeah, for a little while. Everyone got sucked up into a big Heartless tornado and then Sora had to gather parts of herself and then go get everyone's hearts back from a Heartless that had captured them. There was a little extra confusion about where Kai's was, but everything came out alright, until later on.

[ She looks less disturbed than she should, probably, and more to herself than in response. ]

I remember it, sort of. It felt like we were going up against them a second time, and I felt... sick. I felt like I remembered Sora being devastated, and trying to get her to... do something, I just didn't remember what. I'm still confused.

[ She shrugs. ]

Thanks. We never talked about it, and I didn't want to be the one to bring it up.

It did seem like she lost hope for a bit, but she bounced back. You and Kai helped her, like you always do.

[Hachibi's thinking about how weird it is that Axel can swap the pronouns so easily when he's talking about this stuff, but Axel just sort of sees the genderswapped versions when he plays, at this point, apart from the ones that are more distinctly different (i.e. the girls in dresses). and Axel can definitely tell she's got lingering feels for Sora, but that seems perfectly reasonable to him.]

[ That makes her smile, unexpectedly and very genuine, before it turns a little sad again in the eyes. She's glad that's universal, at least — Rikus and Kais and Kairis helping their Soras, and more especially that she'd been able to. ]

I wish she'd come home with us.

I know. Maybe she will someday, but at least you do get to see her once in a while. It's not the best, but it's better than nothing, right?

[is it? if he'd been vastly more attached to anyone from his own world, would he be fine with only seeing them every few years, and with them not even knowing he'd been gone? probably not, but he's not a champion at bottling things up like Riku is. she seems mostly okay, though, as okay as could be expected.]

I guess it's better than never seeing her again.

[ Incoming Riku gloom, because she thinks that might be the case now. Unlikely but possible. Maybe Sora will show up for her 50th birthday or something. ]

[noooooo gloom is not allowed here, not when Axel's around.]

Hey, none of that, no pessimism. Tell me about Aqua and the others, I've never really talked to any versions around here. All three of them have a lot to recover from, huh.

It's going to be a long road for everyone, but... yeah. Especially them. I've talked to a couple of them before. We had a ton of Aquas here for a while. Almost like Rikus, or Soras.

[ Very popular in lady-form. ]

What do you want to know?

Mostly I was confused about where Terra was the whole time, since there was the Xehanort in Terra's body, but then actual Terra came out of Guardian, and also it seems like there was a little bit of her in Xemnas as well. It's like the reverse of Sora, almost.

[if that makes any sense to Riku. he's honestly concerned about how one recovers from being scattered apart like that.]

— uh.

[ Riku, who feels the same way about Terra as one might feel about their deeply sympathetic hot older teacher who went through similar traumatic experiences: ]

The... time travel? Guardian—

[ And she feels so guilty for using Guardian so much, even after the events with the Organization. Fuck, even here, against Hachibi, once. ]

Xehanort took Terra's body, and they became the Xehanort that became the Heartless that started everything for me and Sora, and Kai losing his Heart. The Heartless that looked human, the face I took — that was Xehanort. But I think, because their Hearts were linked, Terra's Heart became the Guardian? Trapped, and a weapon, and not really her own. Xemnas was their Nobody.

[ After a second where she's not sure she wants to say this: ]

I think Xemnas is kind of like Nami. Terra's body, and Xehanort's Heart. But maybe some of Terra's influence, too. I don't know. It was a mess. I did talk to her— they just almost had to force me.

[ No one else back home can understand that unwilling body-snatching and Xehanort possession quite as well, and Sora and Kai probably thought it would be good for Riku. Especially since Riku was chosen by Terra way back. ]

[Axel's quiet while he listens, and he tightens the arm he has flung over her when she's finished. he'll remark on the other stuff in a moment, but:]

Did it help?

[ She doesn't answer right away, staring at the corner of the ceiling as she thinks about it, and then nods slowly. ]

Yeah. But when it comes to... getting past it, or healing, I think it would've had more impact on other Rikus. I've had so much time here that I don't need it anymore.

That's good, then. Hopefully it helps the version of you that's there when you're here, if that's how that works. But that makes sense about Terra. Isa told me a lot about Xemnas, and Xehanort, and it sounded like if Xehanort hadn't been influencing people so hard, Xemnas might've been a decent person, as Nobodies go, and mostly because of Terra.

[nevermind that the whole Xehanort mess is basically just a big nesting doll but with people. he only understands it as much as he needs to, which isn't much.]

[ — Riku looks away from the wall to Axel, and kind of looks like she would if he sprouted another head on top of his shoulders. Hachibi's, maybe. ]

Sure, if it had only been Terra's Nobody. I don't think the Xemnas we knew ever had a chance of being a decent person.

[he could be like that guy from men in black 2, it'd be hilarious and/or horrifying.]

Look, I'm not one to defend Xemnas any more than you are but... she was good to Isa. I don't think much of anyone came out of the Organization a good person, but all the really bad shit was Xehanort's doing.

[Ansem SOD was still a dick though, everyone can agree on that.]

[ Honestly it would've been a pretty hilarious Halloween costume or spell. ]

And Xigbar, apparently. That's pretty forgiving, putting it all on Xehanort.

[ She's not buying it. Xemnas did some bad shit to her and Sora personally. It's kind of like trying to talk to her several years ago about Axels. ]

Look, she told me about this one time, right around when shit was going down with Xehanort's Heartless and you and Sora and Kai. Xehanort was so focused on that that she pulled all control from Xemnas, which left her kind of... like she'd been turned off, I guess. Anyway, she thought Isa was Aqua, and then passed out to sleep for like six hours.

[this... doesn't excuse the bad shit she did, but it humanizes her and proves Terra was in there somewhere, and also that Xehanort's hold on things was that vital. Axel knows going on with more examples won't really help, and might even piss Riku off, which is why he's not doing it.]

[ Riku mostly looks uncomfortable as she's listening to this, but then by the end it's just 100% confusion. ]

What?

[which part is confusing her, because Axel's not great at explaining things as it is. he's doing his best, okay. also i'm yanking direct from my prose here.]

What what. Isa said it didn't click for her until she saw Aqua finally, but it makes sense, they have similar coloring. She said she couldn't tell what name Xemnas said, but that she said something about being afraid she'd lost Isa, or Aqua, to the darkness.